do you have to label yourself?

Feeling all engergized after tonight's little outing so thought i'd put finger to keyboard, went to an exercise class which i've never done before was proper hilarious! The only exercise i usually get is lifting my arm to take a drag from my ciggi (I know it's Not cool)! I just thought new year and all that jazz, and to be honest was really funny, i mean the teacher was either drunk or on a lot of drugs she was crazyyyy and strangly hot!i might even go again! It's not really my kinda thing if im honest but gotta try these things! Plus attempting to get a nice body always helps with your self confidence, and you might even meet new people.




Which leads me to how this gg thing all started in a way. Some of you G'G's may have alway's known you were gay from a young age and that's awesome, some of you gg's may have been pretty open about it from the word GG, altho for some it's a little harder putting a label on it. There i was....after a string of uncomfortable and regreatable drunken boyfriend encounter's, single, bored and kinda lost. Working a rubbish temp job in my home town waiting for something exciting to just pop along. I'd just moved back from Uni so was kinda on a downer being back from london and living in a small town. I guess i've alway's known i like girls...... i mean i used to fancy girls at school and have loads of celeb crushs (which is still happening) but i just put it down to well...nothing...!!!!!!. (I hated having to put a label on it at time) So i burried these feelings so deep even Jeremy Kyle wouldn't of got a confession from me! I didn't even act on it at uni which i totally regret now, i just looked at other 'Out there Gaygirls' AND I WASN'T LIKE THEM AT ALL SO I THOUGHT WELL I CAN'T BE.

The fact i often had secret crush's on girls wasn't even enough to make me accept i was a GG. It wasn't until i was lying in bed one night after watching my favourite programme on my laptop 'The Lword' that i relaised..... shit im bloody gay aren't I? i don't fancy boys and probs never will! (By the way i'm sure you all know what the L word is, (but just in case) it's a brilliant American tv drama following a load of beautiful La gay women) If you haven't watched this, watch it!!! watch them all (Order it off amazon or HMV)! It made me realise you can be a gaygal who's either a sterotype, or not a sterotype, you can be sexy, attractive, sucessful and cool to everyone! Basically just be who you are, your style, what ever that is!

So it was like a massive 'light bulb' realisation moment in my head ' I think im GAY'! I mean i lay there kind of excited and confused.... thinking about how i could get this 'lword La Lifestyle' and where'd i'd even start.

So even though i'd fancied girls since i was 12, been a bit of a tom boy, not enjoyed sex with boys unless i'd drank 26 vodka redbull's, and basically obsessed over the girl i sat next too in math's...all this wasn't even enough to make me relaise I might be GG.

I mean i'm not totally stupid.... i had kinda realised it but because i didn't fit the sterotypical bill and i wasn't 100 percent sure i wanted to step out the gg box... i just decided to ignore it! But the best piece off advice i could of heard at this time in my life was...... 'YOU DONT HAVE TO LABEL YOURSELF, EVER, JUST BE YOU, A FREE SPIRIT, WHO'S OPEN TO ANYTHING'! But in saying that if you know exactly who you are and want to label it right away... go for it, you have totally 'nanda' to loose it's awesome and people will repect you for who you are!

The next step was meeting a GG which i did, a few one's hehe but i then met my girlfriend which i'll tell u about another time.

Anyways i wanna hear from you GG'S, When did u have that light bulb moment you were a GG? or MAYBE you still don't know?


love GG X