Cringy First Blind Date!

So....nice too meet you MYSPACE!

Alright you? How’s things? I’ve been a bit busy working, parting planning, getting myself in to silly situations, day dreaming about Carman... the usual. So I’ll tell you what has come to my attention of late is that twitter seems to be a bit of a dating site for g’g’s.

If you come from a small town where g’g’s just don’t exist you can’t beat a little online flirting, although I don’t know..... call me crazy but I’d much rather have a real life date.... you know! Anyway’s I did meet an online girl once.
I’d kind of not long come out and hadn’t really told anyone, I don’t really know how it happened just starting chatting to this random MySpace girl (I’ll call her MySpace). You know random chit chat and all that..... Didn’t even think anything of it, but then our online relationship took the next step to MSN (This was getting serious lol).

So I was all new to this gay girl thing and online flirting, I’d never done it before cause I guess I’m always scared that they might not be who they say they are. I mean that gay girl hottie could turn out to be a 60 year old bloke called derrick and that’s never a cool situation lol. Anyway’s I gave it a go, after a good few conversation’s with MySpace we decided to meet.
(Which i ‘m sure you don’t need me telling you, but be very careful, it’s way better to meet people that you know and that you’ve met in real life, like your mum used to say don’t take sweet’s of strangers and all that.)

Anyway’s i went against everything my parents taught me and met this MySpace, she only lived like ten min’s away so that was cool. My god that was the most nerve racking train experience of my life, what was she like? Hope she looked like her pictures? Really hope she’s not called derrick? Do i look ok? Will i be able to make enough conversation? Hope she likes me? Oh my god what the hell am i wearing? All of those question’s were rattling around my head as the train pulled in to her town.
She picked me up from the station and we went back to her student house, she seemed really sound and did look like her picture and wasn’t called derrick, so all in all the date was going really well. We decided to have a few drinks and go out to this gay club nearby.

I pictured this gay club in my head to be like ‘The planet in the Lword’, full of attractive Hollywood women, it wasn’t! To my disappointed there were two gay guys propped at the bar and an old bloke in the corner who kind of looked like he’d be happy to mug me.
Despite the shit hole of a club me and ‘MySpace’ laughed it off and decided to take full advantage of the drink’s promotions. I was so nervous so the drink went down an absolute treat. I was battered within like half an hour, cracking jokes all over the place, flirting, being cocky, even went in for a kiss. (Can i just stress confidence is attractive, like very attractive but don’t be too cocky it will only end in tears lol.)

So we hit it off a treat, but to my horror they was a girl from my old school in there, i was so embarrassed as no one in my small town had known i was g g. So like the gimp that i am, carried on with the drink promotions.
The night ended with me being sick out of her bedroom window, if first impressions are anything to go by i definitely made one. Anyway’s i learn’t my first massive lesson don’t get wrecked to get confidence-it will only turn you into a massive cocky gimp who will almost definitely be sick! Anyway ‘s it turned out that when i had sobered up.... she wasn’t really who i thought she was, in fact she was so not my type at all , we were completely different. We saw each other a few times but nothing really came of it.
The cool thing was i’d met another gg and it was a pretty funny experience, i’d learn’t vodka redbull does not give you gay wings. Anyway’s if you enjoy a flirt online go for it, you might even meet a few cool gg mates, just don’t meet late at night and get too wrecked like i did ha-ha, you never know they might not turn out to be so nice. Maybe’s have a few phone calls or web cam them so you know there not called Derrick.... and that you even fancy them.

Anyways have a good Saturday night G’G’s.
Let me know if you’ve ever had any online dates, or funny flirting situations online? Has online dating ever worked out for someone?
Chat soon

Love GG X



THIS IS ME AND MY GIRLFRIEND.... IM TRYING TO HOLD HER HEAD OR SOMETHING.... AGAIN IM WRECKED ON A DATE (I promise i'm trying not to do this too often lol)

Are you Still my Valentines?

So here's the deal... i haven't been able to write anything for a bit, to be honest been having a pretty strange time of it, my girlfriend and i 'have'/'are' spilting up. Which is totally horrible, very sad and very confusing but at the same time it's kind of been coming for a while now and i know it's...( wait Cheesy breakup line) for the best. I've got loads of stuff to write about this,first loves and breakup's in general but i'll try keep it simple today. So on a lighter note It's the big V day tomorrow yey or maybe...... nay for some,the most romantic day of the year they all say?




The day where you can spoil, suprise, reveal yourself, and impress the one you love. Now when i asked my friend's and people on twitter what they thought of valentines.... it was a bit of a mixed bag. Some people hate hate HATE it, like want to throw up-hate it, and some people are so loved up and totally love it. Me personally....I usually love it.... well kind of, I don't buy into the whole commericialism of the day but i love abit of romance. I mean going out for a meal on valentines night is perhaps the most un-romantic thing you could actually do, i mean your crammed into an overpriced restaurant with a million other couples, literally rubbing elbows and sharing drink's with the table sat next to you...yuk! No thanks.... i think the most romantic thing's that happen between you and the one you love are the little things. I mean don't get me wrong a massive romantic gesture 'done well' is sweet and very awesome. But IF YOU GET IT WRONG, it can be a little bit overpowering and bit cheese ball at time's.

I think Valentine's day is awesome when your just getting together with someone, or your persusing someone you really like. Let's face it... it's always BLOODY nice to get a valentines card no matter who you are. It's only rubbish when you want one and you don't get one, or you think the girl of your dreams has sent you one but it's from your grandad(true story). But don't worry..... everyone will experience that time of being head over heels in 'gay girl love' with someone and YOU will get that card i promise.

If your thinking of sending someone a valentines card....do it! 100 percent do it! You don't have to even put your name on it... but if your feeling brave enough go for it, you never know they might be your valentine and as i said everyone love's a valentines card.

This year's going to be a very strange one for me like i said, i will be seeing my girlfriend cause we're meeting for a chat about stuff which is really weird but it's major complicated like most gaygirl drama's are i guess. Do i still give her a card or does that confuse things? cause i think she's made me one. i mean i think it's 100 percent the end OF US for many reason's, but i want it to end on a good note. She's my best friend after all and we've had three awesome years together that i'll never forgot, i mean you never forgot your first love. God it's going to be a weird valentines day....i think i better make her one or should i??????????? god have i even got time now...i mean i can't make her a shit one that will really be like rubbing the salt in the wound.

Anyways whether you love it or hate it tomorrow is happeninggggg....it's the one day of the year you can put yourself out-there and kind of get away with it, send that card, or a message, which ever and you never know you may just get one back.

Anyways wish me luck with mine it's not going to be the best valentines day i've had, because i'm not sure she's even my valentines anymore.

Anyways let me know how your Valentine's went or what you did, and you never know someone could be hoping you send them one.

Happy Valentines day you! haha


love GG X

do you have to label yourself?

Feeling all engergized after tonight's little outing so thought i'd put finger to keyboard, went to an exercise class which i've never done before was proper hilarious! The only exercise i usually get is lifting my arm to take a drag from my ciggi (I know it's Not cool)! I just thought new year and all that jazz, and to be honest was really funny, i mean the teacher was either drunk or on a lot of drugs she was crazyyyy and strangly hot!i might even go again! It's not really my kinda thing if im honest but gotta try these things! Plus attempting to get a nice body always helps with your self confidence, and you might even meet new people.




Which leads me to how this gg thing all started in a way. Some of you G'G's may have alway's known you were gay from a young age and that's awesome, some of you gg's may have been pretty open about it from the word GG, altho for some it's a little harder putting a label on it. There i was....after a string of uncomfortable and regreatable drunken boyfriend encounter's, single, bored and kinda lost. Working a rubbish temp job in my home town waiting for something exciting to just pop along. I'd just moved back from Uni so was kinda on a downer being back from london and living in a small town. I guess i've alway's known i like girls...... i mean i used to fancy girls at school and have loads of celeb crushs (which is still happening) but i just put it down to well...nothing...!!!!!!. (I hated having to put a label on it at time) So i burried these feelings so deep even Jeremy Kyle wouldn't of got a confession from me! I didn't even act on it at uni which i totally regret now, i just looked at other 'Out there Gaygirls' AND I WASN'T LIKE THEM AT ALL SO I THOUGHT WELL I CAN'T BE.

The fact i often had secret crush's on girls wasn't even enough to make me accept i was a GG. It wasn't until i was lying in bed one night after watching my favourite programme on my laptop 'The Lword' that i relaised..... shit im bloody gay aren't I? i don't fancy boys and probs never will! (By the way i'm sure you all know what the L word is, (but just in case) it's a brilliant American tv drama following a load of beautiful La gay women) If you haven't watched this, watch it!!! watch them all (Order it off amazon or HMV)! It made me realise you can be a gaygal who's either a sterotype, or not a sterotype, you can be sexy, attractive, sucessful and cool to everyone! Basically just be who you are, your style, what ever that is!

So it was like a massive 'light bulb' realisation moment in my head ' I think im GAY'! I mean i lay there kind of excited and confused.... thinking about how i could get this 'lword La Lifestyle' and where'd i'd even start.

So even though i'd fancied girls since i was 12, been a bit of a tom boy, not enjoyed sex with boys unless i'd drank 26 vodka redbull's, and basically obsessed over the girl i sat next too in math's...all this wasn't even enough to make me relaise I might be GG.

I mean i'm not totally stupid.... i had kinda realised it but because i didn't fit the sterotypical bill and i wasn't 100 percent sure i wanted to step out the gg box... i just decided to ignore it! But the best piece off advice i could of heard at this time in my life was...... 'YOU DONT HAVE TO LABEL YOURSELF, EVER, JUST BE YOU, A FREE SPIRIT, WHO'S OPEN TO ANYTHING'! But in saying that if you know exactly who you are and want to label it right away... go for it, you have totally 'nanda' to loose it's awesome and people will repect you for who you are!

The next step was meeting a GG which i did, a few one's hehe but i then met my girlfriend which i'll tell u about another time.

Anyways i wanna hear from you GG'S, When did u have that light bulb moment you were a GG? or MAYBE you still don't know?


love GG X

BIT ABOUT ME! Let's make this year count G'G's

well i know it's the 1st of Feb 2011 but like everyone i never ever stick to my newyear rez's i suck and have pretty much no will power what so ever! So this year i decided to have New year all over again this weekend with my friends. So im offically kicking off 2011 right here, right now and so can you (if you want U DON'T HAVE TO HA)! So you may have guessed im a GG (modern gaygirl), im not the usual sterotypical image of a gaygirl that most people think off altho there's nothing wrong with that. I'm starting this diary as a bit of a self help thing, altho even if it just make's you laugh and feel better about yourself i've done my job. To be honest you might even be able to help me lol.... I'm really still learning how to be comfortable in my own gg skin... so i'm not claiming to know it all..... far from it....... really far from it, i just thought this might be a fun idea for us fellow gg's to read and chat about as there's not much in the mainstream for us gg's, well there is....you've got the lword and sugar rush and gay websites and all that.... altho let's face it there just tv shows and not real people half the time. Us on the other hand.. are real life gg's with real life gay girl problems.

So here's a little bit about me...(Just so you can put a face to the blog... you know what i mean) I Can't reveal who i am too much but....

I'm a young twenty-something girl in a relationship with another girl.I don't look like a sterotypical gay girl at all, living in a fairly small town in England at the moment. My first love was music BECAUSE i think it's one of the best thing's in world..It cause's every single emotion possible and it's with you through everything. I'm a brunette, and one of my dream's is to have a penthouse in newyork with the gg of my dreams ha. My girlfriend and i have been together for 3 years and kind of grown up together, which in the GG world is quite a long time, it's almost like 6 in straight years. We've never cheated on each other which can be abit of a rare thing in the gg circle. I'm not saying all gg's are cheats and players (altho you do get them) which i'll tell you about some time. Anyways I fancy girls but my sexuality is not all i'm about! it's just a part of me, kinda like my favorite colour. You can't help what you like or who you fall for.




Happy new year GG'S,


Through-out this blog i'll be telling you about my relationship experiences as their happening, the do's and don'ts, and all the basic stuff they forget to teach you at school like real life dates, self confidence, learning to be yourself, celeb crushes, changing your situation, how to get the gg of your dreams, and how not to fight over face wipes. Suggestions on Music, films, tv show's, place's to go, and if you've got any back for me or any advice that be bloody great ha.

Anyways Whether your single, heartbroken, gay, bi, just a free spirit, dating, married, have a read of the dilemma's us gg's face! WELCOME TO THE DIARY OF A GG!

GG x